Category: Zen Corner

A reminder for myself: Be at peace and I will find peace

I’ve grown up as a Buddhist. All of the lessons I’ve learn in life – of course I’ve learnt it the hard way – have made me a believer.

But living this life is sometimes the same with swimming in a stormy ocean. Even when you’re trying to stay afloat and calm, the madness won’t stop pushing and drowning you. That’s when we forgot about all the lessons in life, wisdoms, etc. Everything you are just disappear over a quick moment where you allow anger to step past your doors.

And then soon enough when anger left, your wisdom and thoughts come back and pity yourself.

I need to focus.

What is my life goal?


I only live for my family.

Being home with my loved ones is my happy place.

Lately I’ve let so many emotions divide my inner peace – disappointment of failures to conceive, worries, stress, depression, etc. I am running to a dead end again. I need to find myself the way out again. I will never stop finding myself the way out. I will never let myself drown in the dark water. I can’t. Because the days when I revived my suicides. I decided to only live this life and love this body for my loved ones.

I should leave the world outside at the doors. Angers, jealousy, hate, demons back off! Stay outside of my doors.

Let me be at peace again, so that I can find peace in everything I do.

I’ve been through hell, so that I am no angel. I am not that innocent. But I choose to be nice, to be kind, because I believe in karma. And for being innocent and truthful, I believe happiness will find its way to meet me at the end of the road.

Another productive day well spent in the backyard

When we first moved to our house, our backyard was blank.

Backyard in 2018
Backyard in 2018

Around summer of 2018, we started our first project with concrete slab.

Summer of 2018
Summer of 2018

Then we started to build our backyard. Placing bricks around the fence, bricks for raised garden beds, planting grass, etc.

Everything in our backyard are from scratch. That’s how we love it so much even it’s not professionally beautiful but it’s our hardwork, sweat and love we’ve put in there.

Summer 2018
Summer of 2018, we also made a little pathway for the trash bins area.
Fall of 2018

We’ve made several changes, planted so many vegetables.

I’ve had tomatoes, papaya, banana, winter melons, cucumber, lime, lemon, luffa, white mini eggplant, peppers, sun flowers, rosemary, mint, aloe vera, a lot of basils and other Vietnamese herbs and so many more that I can’t remember to name them all.

But when 2020 hit, I got lazy, I completely abandoned my yard the whole year. It was a stressful and frustrated year.

This year, I want to start gardening again.

Today we sowed broccoli, artichoke, okra, chilli peppers, eggplant, water spinach, snow peas, malanar spinach.

We’ve only lived here over 3 yrs but we’ve made this place our home sweer home. ❤